Career

Forced to deal with this career . my whole life dealing with it all inside in my heart mostly my mind, or i would be using my heart more maybe that would be best. How many jobs make a career that are wild and missing along with those that are organized or logical why bother writing this when I've been unemployed so many times and no one here is familiar with this pattern so I feel I am out of reach out of touch and mistreated for whatever, what am i even saying?

I want to puke up all my food. i want to dive into the moon. i thought i could be a writer instead of dealing with career myths and nature. who know what the hell its all about. theres no surprise no doubt. i hate the fact that we cannot do anything without thinking of forget it.

It's pizza night. Three days till the new year of 2018.  I can barely hear you in all my clutter. I can't obey Im so troubled and dismayed oh Lord help us, my son, and me. Please help me to appreciate thee.

I don't want to fight a ymore.  What can you do that I can do with y ou ?? Making money, I dream big I dream for you. I miss u everyday through all my life, I need you Lord.

This area and so many other people I need help me treat as you have been needing me, us to treat one another together I cry I cry out loud to you oh God.  Anitas pushing me away already, I'm excited for her and Allen and she says I'm excited to early. Whatever is she talking bout, I'll find out.

I belive