Out of all the keys lost, locked out of the house and car, and yearly bills of parking tickets in the past 8years would drive anyone to wonder. All the rest of the years before that of running out of gas, teen car crashes, and class fees for cancellation along with the many other character defects of one young woman.
Leaving the light on in the car for the battery to drain or locking keys in the house or car are wonders of things happened to one young woman.
Young Woman
Locking the boyfriend out of his own apartment twice in one week was a chance to take a huge step back that I took. Then the car broke down and two of the three jobs required a car so I was out of work and volunteering for a apartment rental agency in the city. I didn't do any foot work and the weather was even warm for December and instead stayed put at my parents house applying for jobs online with one call back from an insurance agency in Des Plaines, IL. Since I did not take initiative to set up an interview a week in advance or call the hiring manager to show my interest in the position I applied to on a career search engine promptly I did not get the job.
I feared the job would be to far after applying and that since my car broke down that I should just wait until after the holidays to respond to the other jobs closer such as the bakery job in St. John IN, and several other retail positions. I applied to many other positions of interest during my week at home in Highland, IN to Chicago agencies of travel sales and retail, and aspiring modeling advertisements.
I learned that 2 out of the 10 travel agencies that I called to apply for asked that I call back in January. The other travel agencies were not hiring at all and mentioned that the office was too small. Three days before Christmas I went to some fast food chain and just as a dozen other retail franchises I had been keeping in contact with to get hired and work for they were hitting their slow season where all the college students were home and wouldn't be hiring until March.
I have been hearing this beat of the drum of retail stores hiring and not hiring for a handful of years. I would think I would have listened harder but instead kept slipping in the cracks of the hiring process to the point that I was beginning to believe that my boyfriend was right all along. He told me that I was not trying hard enough and lazy. From all the advice from my parents, friends, and career advisers, confusion and discouragement were not far off.
The pressure was up to my neck and I began to feel like Frodo Baggins with the ring in his pocket. I didn't want to lose my way and began to focus on my nutrition while waiting to let the holidays pass. After locking my keys in my car and my boyfriends car in one week, and once with the car running, I new the holidays were rolling in as I wanted to run off to the gym and bank get coffee just like my regular routine of the weekend; yet it was my boyfriends families Christmas weekend and I was strong willed and feisty.
After my boyfriend called the lock smith and paid 215 dollars to open his car up with the engine running, and after he had to pick up my car keys the week before at the car wash stop on his way back from work, and after I locked him out of his apartment twice on his way home from work the week after that and sent him driving over 3 hours to Indiana to pick up his keys did I realize to go with him to pick up his grandmas cupcakes, and stop to buy what gift ideas were left at the last minute.
We ended up forgetting to buy his aunts car toy gifts as we do every year. And my eyes were swollen red from crying that whole morning as I put off my routine of errands. The weekend rolled smoothly as we entered the state of Wisconsin to his grandmas. As for the aspiring model agencies just as everything else on my plate, I'm taking small bites and chewing very slowly with caution, determination, and diligence. I don't think that makes sense but it felt right to acknowledge.
I am sorry for the car tickets, lost, misplaced, forgotten, and locked in keys and the expense of my mistakes. If I had advise today 12/26/11 before the new year it would be to change. Change. Change.
Right now the frustration is high with my friends and family as they count on me to change. I will make a change.
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