The Critic in Me

From blogs to Yelp, Ive carried on my very best details for cherished things.  What can I say?  Well I dont know, Im alarmed by the things I hear and my faith.

Bamboozled. Astonished.  These senses we've paid little attention in the rat race.  Ive sat on great food, attitudes, and places.
Gratitude.  Oh the peeps.  These treaures untold!  Ive been up and down.  Only centered when spellbound.

Has the critic deluded me?  The nerve inside to look past every thing has focused me in delights heavenly.

I Need to Know

2017 feels here already.  It's been 2016 long enough.  All in one year such a good year yet too much saddness too.  Pregnant, overweight, diabetic, homesick, c-section, unemployed, broke, benign cancer, and afraid.

Coming out of original order of being barren, eating greasy and sugary foods, vigorous work outs, smoking, working, having a few bucks, and being thin for me more or less introduced me to Hoosier Health, Woman, Infants, and Children nutrition plan for baby food benefits, Bubble Gum for cigarettes, Zumba for beginners, weekly blood and.urine.tests for gesyational diabeties, and 50 lbs extra of weight on my back and water retained knee caps.

New family and friends, old friends and family, breast pump, nipple cream, and at home nurses and baby development trainers too.  Happy New Year.  2017 like I vision is asleep yet here waiting for his bottle, and diaper change.  Most importantly love.

That Baby

Well the devotions have  been strong for.baby  Ethan.  He has a mild winter.  There isnt any snow.  And the temperature is high forties.  There is nothing.much to do about New.Year's Eve with the excitement of going out.

ALREADY as I blog and post I gotta go change a.big veey wet diaper on a happy little hippo, and feed him.  Hes told how happy he is with smiles and laughs, even the angels play while he sleeps and hes happy in his sleep.

WHY NOT?

The town was quite calm for New Year's Eve.  No snow had fallen, and temperatures remained steady in the low 40s. Three towns over from Highland is home.
Yet it wasnt until three summers ago that the home in Highland IN sold.

What a bold term sold.  I was ready to move on and the feelings of not ready as opposed to ready were the same, neutral.  It must have been the same grocery and fast food places that sent me to the edge of glory as Gaga would sing it.

I learned appreciation,collaboration, and rejection.  Success never rang more true, you have to have faith, sacrifice, patience, and hard work. And other things.  The sun was out today.  There isnt that white cold stuff out on the ground.

The holidays are almost over with the New Year. Theres too much alone time.  Theres no problem with that well maybe with the baby and the internet.

Taking advantage of people though is easy when you feel you need to and make it up later.  Then the dinners are the highlight to the days.  Cold winds can give u the bug.

Happy New Year
Kat

Smell That?

In the town of Darteood there isnt a smell in thr air that isnt food.  French fries, popcorn, or bread.  God it's annoying.  Sugar plum lotion must be nice.  I can only think about eating.

Ive chewed gum of all flavors, and still I can't wait to fill my hunger for Salmon grilled with capors, and onions.  I wish I could eat potatoes every day.  Fried,baked,teice baked, sauteed,roasted, or raw.

Christmas gifts are all opened.  So why do I even bother looking still to buy gifts?  No one is getting anything.  Even if I think of those who didnt get.anything, or eanted.anything cant have anything from me since I wont be seeing.them until next year. Who knows?

Yummy theres that finger licking good smell of hot crust.buns and chicken. All the lies and bull crap in the world cant take away the aroma of food that sets my mind at ease.

No disappointment or lifestyle can keep me from my God who gave me the keen aense of smell,touch, and taste.  Yes. Yes. Yes. AMEN to oven cooked foods.

My U2 Experience

Being sixteen years old, 7920 days ago feels made up.  Im so old now compared to then.  There wasnt much to do.  Sitting around listening to U2,Pearl Jam, Green Day, or STP were essentials to growing up in the peer pressures of the 90s.

Pop Tour blew our minds. We acted out in ways we my bf and I at the time would never do.  I ran passed bouncers with the help of my mom while my bf was left behind standing alone.  He smoked alot, it seemed cool the way the smoke covered his face then sucked back in on inhale. Wow the simple teenage years.

I read Walk On my first book after university, an autobiography of U2.  I had a large U2 photo print book stolen years ago before Google and other search engines.  Then my highschooligan boyfriend and I reunited for U2's 2015 tour at the United Center, Chicago,IL.

We are going on 37 years of age, half if that being fans of Bono, Larry Mullens, Adam Clayton and The Edge. Hope I spelled their names correctly.  Mind blowing entertainment.  Fun and exciting place to be so I very seen a collection of their Chicago show's respectively and thankfully.

Pour Some Salt on Me

pour some salt or pepper, garlic powder, okie let's not get eaten.  So many spices out there gosh.  So why salt? Well it is written we are the salt of the earth.  Salt seasons a rainy day and a bland day.  Salt flavors food and melts the ice so we dont kill ourselves walking and driving in the heat of the winter.

I love salt scrubs to exfoliate my skin.  And balance ingredients through the whole batch of dough.

Oh babie up. Oh maybe not. Woop yep. Oh nope.  Alright in the name of love,  Im cold, bland and sour from my head to my feet.  Ha. Well, It is written, whatever is hidden shall be seen, ahhh dont panic.  In other words it is written we dont put a lamp lit under the table but in top to light up the room.

And we are the light on the hill made of salt to light up the world.  Notice we are not the sugar or cayenne pepper of the earth but the salt.  Why not?  To be cont.

I cant probably guesstimate that sugar is  Bad and not a part of our food pyramid btw the Medditerreanean diet has a thumbnail size for meat group my fav pyramid but you have to be a herbivore not a meat lover.

Thay being said, the Greeks food pyramid are packed with great stuff I mean look at those Gladiators and Greek statues such as Oh nevermind thats another blog.

So we can't be the pepper of the earth or onion powder either or we would be sneezing and crying too much.  Thats my configuration of being the salt of the earth.

 

Good Tidings

"Let's Call the Whole Thing Off," Fred Estaire

Christmas gifts all year long in my plans for him, and her.  Looking at the roof tops frosted with sparkling snow glimmering aunshine and a blue sky.  Skimming price tags and hand bags for him and for her.

I couldn't just relax.  All the jazz and hocus pocus.  A feast of friends and Kris Kringles dance.  Locked doors to heavens and uninvited.  Loose ties, and loose ends of lies of what happened determining decisions of him and her.

Left then are spreading cracks and creavaces to fill with gifts of love and bliss worlds apart and cherry tarts twirling arts into a gift box or a gift card.

Twisting around gifts with cheer, places with beer.  And what gifts would bring the best from the heart other than we are worlds apart.  One day a year for thirty six so far filled with body oils and lotions, tampons, soaps, razors to start a new year of lady like devotions. Thank you mom and dad rhe best gifts Ive ever had!

Nothing too exciting and nothing to dull, how bout some sports tickets to go see the Chicago Bulls.  Or a trip to Kris Kringles. Hope this Christmas your gifts are filled with BBQ Pringles.

Giant SNOW

Snow comes and goes when invited or not.  We talk about snow and ice safety and security precautions to everyone.  What a sight of icicles and frozen banks of snow drifts splashed by artic blasts.  The snow falls gorgeous.

Fire places are great to have and use at this rime. Well big down feather coats too. Zumba beginners can love being indoors at this time.

Santa visit. Check.

Its nine pm in my hometown Highland, IN.  Its winter here in NW Indiana and the city has shed its final coat off and now Im back to a very simple life of putting my clothes out before bedtime, remembering to brush your teeth, and sleep eight hours a day.

Coffee and doughy nuts

Cheese and coffee sound good.  Crabs clawing back and forth over the kind of donuts they are eating.  Couldn't resist the doughy fresh raspberry jelly filled sugar donut.  Ive never tasted a fresher donut in my life.

Could it be my strong resistance on sweets. How can we forget Kris Kringle?  The spirit of giving and the sip of coffee with exciting new feelings of highs and lows better than sledding.

Cold nips, and toes in a quagmire of waiting and watching of snow falls nig and small.  Please renew my dvds one more.time.    I felt Kringle lookin in last night and the night before with a rush of blood to my head.

Too many donuts.  I eat the top off of peanuts or shredded coconut.

I think of a baby cub helpless in the forest without his mom when I see my sons little baby eyes.  Then I start to sing Lynryd Scynryds Simple Man lyric that goes all I want for you my pnly son is to be satisfied.  I guess it's just the same aong hed sing along to with his dads dad. Ancient music for good times with good coffee too.  

I mean who am 8

I to say?  Or not.  I mean after thousands of movied and cups of joe my God Ive no where close to being done tasting and seeing what I need to want to see and taste to get to finishing tasting and seeing dreaming over a movie and a good holiday cup if eggnog?  Kringle must be spinning me into good humor on a rollercoaster.  Kris Kingle just be nice to this little laddy as he dances for his daddy.  My little one here has been through nore than I could ever know about.find

Sky Blues

Thank you!  I want to close my eyes.  Habent had much eep. Sleep.  I meant sleep.  sometimes I can ask a centered question.  A question such as what is really bothering me.  You know?  The carrots I succumbed to tonight were baked with oil Nd salt.

I had al ittle smoothie which helps me to sleep.  Im dreaming of what to ask Krin gle.   ?  So do I have to stay awake with well that three week period Erik left to Paoli IN while in my.third trimester, and.All other dreaded--ditch the prego days are over and healing process begins.

It was those sky.blues he has that coolede.down.  my fingers.are.asleep and o cant keep my.right eye open.  So tired here.
My.stomach turns at the thought of Paoli,IN.  Its enchanting,and quiet.  No plaza, or store for an hour.

I grow queesy when I think about leaving home od

Just a Second

The parents were large always colorful and Skitas favorite creatures or bird.  She would hold them by their big claws hooked around her forearms.  There was a large outdoor birdcage in her resort property in some part of Mexico where Skita was married.

The long beeks and claws could take a toe off.  A finger could be nipped off by the parrots nature when least expected. I wouldnt want to hold one of those fruit loop birds.

Courage, curiosity, exploration, and discovery were phenomenal gifts human nature possessed and the mystery of each second those tropical island feathery fellas brought to people only kept me several feet further than my usual walking line.

Ive seen parrots in the Chicago north spot of Damen and Lincoln St. three of them and I asked how much do the parrots cost?  $600_800.00. And then I asked how long do they live?  70 years if I recall.  Or 700 yeArs one of the two and then it dawned on me that Skita and my grandma had a parrot, red,greed,yellow sunflower eating thing named Loretta.

Loretta set such a mark such an impression on us we still talk if her today as a part of our family.  She screached alot and didnt talk not really.  And so impressionable I am, I appreciate all Skitas pictures if her and parrots wherever she would vacation as a favor to Loretta a dearly loved emblem of exotic wonder, love, and unique normalty once in childhood where youth and innocence were once salvation to a fast life of the working race aging, and aching away.

2016 at the lake county fair I couldnt get myself to give more than a few seconds to Skitas joy in parrots.  As she cozied up to take a snap shot of a parrot on her arm these owners wouldn't allow her to move them and that said, she could only have a snapshot next to these exotic creatures of God on their pegs.

Maybe because of our new children is why my world ,her,world took a new direction into motherhood of our own maybe not.  It could have been an instinct a new direction of caution and know how as newborns were now in our own levels of survival and life as we once knew it bamboozled present and future.  Maybe I needed to give one more second to the moment of truth before turning away for tradition or and honor.

Simpley

Sont tou need vegetables? No.  As I take initiative to pick up vegetables Im not.hungry or working to buy them.  Snow is falling and I am thinking about the misery of picking out a bag of carrots.  Maybe I'll make carrot cake that'll make me feel better.

The bag of carrots in my arms have made it past the chip,juoce, and bread aisle.  And bakery.  My eyes were saddened yet my belly gladdened.  Maybe thats what is meant by the saying your eyes are bigger than your stomach.

My new dinner carrots baked in oven with oil and salt.  Boiled vegetables or stewed drain away all the vitamins and so does the oven.  I assume the oven will burn all the nutrients away.

A lot has.gone on to actually say simpley vegetables go a long.way.  It's hot in the house well it may be my brain.  Logically, normalty is potatoes.  Raw carrots no.  Well its six pm and dinner is some kind of vegetables.  Carrots.  So what can I make with.carrots tonight? What?  Thought youvhad a plan, peal and bake em.  Close enough.

But its December who eats carrots?  Enchiladas? No carrots.  So as the battle rocks my stomach with vegetables and meat dinners, my hands reach for a sloppy joe bigger than my head.  And my future spells out a dream for that fit body and young feeling again.

These are the rewards Ive claimed to work outs and daily veggies.  Yet my December has always been this way, with dessert too and a dabble of this and that.  But maybe.this year Ill really do it. Eat those carrots.

So back to simpley carrots.  They are orange for one. All other veggies are green.  At least the right.ones.  and you can  make a carrot cake if all else fails.  Ill do it for my design and for Ethan.

KRIS KRINGLE look out!

Waking early morning snow melting its first first layer from the roof tops.  Heat is cranked.  It's warm and toasty as my engine gets running to start the day.  It's just another day in Indianas NW region.  Here the winters last more than any one cares to see as ice coats the streets.

Tis the season.  All the best prayers come and go when they need to be year round. Candycanes, wreaths, and lights wrap around trees and light posts.  Unforgettable sunrises crusted by snowy horizons, and 36 years of this is timeless.

Kris Kringle is coming I hear in stories and songs all month long in December. Holiday cheer with holiday fear prepared a blackberry and chocolate mud pie.  Apple fritters, and recipes for the Dutch Baby.

I'm revved up for roasted vegetables from brussels to carrots sliced, oiled and salted. Thrown in oven on parchment paper at 350 for 20 minutes.  The delicious tastes of chex mix ingredients came yesterday and for the first time my own mix was a failure.  All the tastes must habe burnt off in the oven.

Negative temperatures below freezing are coming and no one can bre ready enough unless the largest down feather coat is invested in.  Buying gifts for the thought that counts motive will get you every time.  What happened to the child like joys and sweet tooth pleasures?

Sitting at 36 years old, in gym stretch pants, and my carb list is all I can afford today to lose.  I hate to say the surprise in life has felt more beautiful and controlled.  I dont remember which is better.  Watching the movie markee, worrying about city driving, and carbs here in the small town of St.John, IN, nestling in the bed with baby blues and old Christmas movies such as Big, or Scrooged from my time has turned into a movie marathon of Everest, and Polar Express.

Taking walks at your own risk and joining parties with family bliss at this time of the year are probably the most well worth times of celebrating fitness and wealth.  So what happens to the rest of the year?  Work, and no play make a full day? Say that to the unemployed and watch them draw a blank. House work, and baby blues have their silver linings.  But pitch that cigar and good health will be in your findings.

Kris Kingle come jingle my wrinkles, kidding.  All this time what are doing for Kris's arrival?  Hes not a ufo, or a foe.  Have you looked up Kringle in the phone book?  Kidding.  I recommend those crunches and bunches of oats to get on the side of the year a best Took.

Movie Critic Noghtmare

Ahhh, the heavens take me to the show.  Nothing feels better than seeing a bumch of superhero previews mixed with the same actor grouped together for another comedy.

First day of snow.  A wet globe of white slush.  Ethans first snow.  The movies of stars from decades of amazing movies brings a silly madness of confidence and coirage after coming out of the big dark theatre of childhood dreams on the big screen.

And even still only a few things matter, a laugh, a tear, and a little scare from a motion picture that stays in the heart where family cancelled.

Frittata Ya

The morning stArted out as a gloomy very cold sleety secret.  Amazing yet depressing and it seemed extraordinary when Ethan my six month year old wakes up at six am.  As an early bird gets his work I am able to start eating early.

The eight eggs stirred up with lots of cheese, and chopped up carrots and onions.  Heated oven to 450 degrees and chopped Brussels sprouts.  Oh crap im in the theatre.  Mom always said watch the movie.  Oh no gotta go.