Saturday, March 16, 2019

If I could go back and change something .....

Mom told me to where J Crew again. The last day I wore anything J Crew I was walking alone passed a big J Crew store in Chicago IL on my way to Weed Street. It was so lonely and isolating because no one was there from I.U. and i dont want to forget to mention that I.U. is the whole design of the place called Joe's on Weed St.

It wasnt to long ago but it felt like ions ago. I was slimmer and younger and yet very sad and alone. It felt my world was a blank slate. The JCrew store was a God send to walk through because it showed me a life of clean cut class and wholesome choices that could have saved my life.

The pinks, and baby blues, and white denim in the design of JCrew had been the very calling I've missed for almost 40 years. I believe that God was telling me this over and over for years through the one and only mom. My mom wanted me back and she wanted me back wearing JCrew!

Even as I conclude this cry out of revelation it feels redemption is happening and peace has been broken into my life making me new.   Ive been walking through time in a way that feels like boundaries are removed that maybe I needed to keep up and put up in areas that needed to stay down.

I couldnt believe that the fruits of the Spirit were there in my world without family around. I would wait for the after college blues to wear off and the fading haunts of campus life went away and when the Chicago streets began to sparkle I.U. family became a reality that would be a legacy of education and the student body shadowing me for the rest of my life.

Friday, March 8, 2019

Food journal

Cream horn
Veggie straws
Pizza slice
Coffee
Sandwich
Ramen soup yesyersay
Veggie soup yestetday
Eggs
Toast
Coffee
Banana smoothie
Peanut butter
Rotten strawberry?
Cookies 2
Cuke salad
Onion
Apple cider vinegar


Thursday, February 28, 2019

Food journal

Shamrock shake half
Other stuff...
Coffee a few cups
Water 2 or 3
Apple cidar vinegar
Clove
And ginger
Jesus
Ham slices and something
7 fish sticks
French fries
Popcorn
Tatar and seafood sauce
Ginger bread cookie
Oatmeal
BlackBerry jam

Sunday, February 24, 2019

Food journal

2 cups of eggs
Buttery sweet bread
Bacon
More bread and butter.
More chex mix 1 cup all r at home
1 pizza slcie
Coffee
Water
Apple cidar vinegar
3 diet supple.e

Yesterday
Cereal
3 pizza and chocolate marshmallow cookie
Water coffee diet supplements
Gingerbread cookie
Rice and shrimp Mex mix
Stir fry
Apple cidar vineraget

Thursday, January 10, 2019

Miss Mias 3rd bday




























How to plan play with a toddler and grandpa

What when where why who?

Boxes of toys.
Tall car tower of slides.
Jungle animals
So much joy in his voice.
So many questions.
So many things he wants.
What can i do to play today with him?
Who can i be or become for him while we play? What does he need? When can we all play well. And how can i enjoy myself and make him happy too.
Be happy that dad is happy how? When? Why?  What can i play with and do?
I am not a playful player of anything.
Oh my God.  Bye here i go.