Dec 22 Saturday
Eggs bacon
Tofu quinoa
3 cookies
Coffee
Water
Chick peas
Apple cider vinegar
At anitas
At apartment
Cheese stick
Banana choc
French fries 5
Salmon capers
Thursday, December 20, 2018
Sunday, December 16, 2018
Food jpurnal
Ramen noodles
2Cheese burgers ff
20 gummy candy
Waffle
Eggs spinach
Applejuice coffee cream
Baby scone
Yesterday
Smoked salmon
Mini bagel
Coffee cream
Tator tots 4
Gingerbread
Capers
Shrimp
Crab tail
Croissant mini
Taco chicken
Gummy candy
Dec 18
Coffee no cream
Chix sticks fries
Hammock beans
Crab cake 1
Coffee
Cookie
Wed
2Cheese burgers ff
20 gummy candy
Waffle
Eggs spinach
Applejuice coffee cream
Baby scone
Yesterday
Smoked salmon
Mini bagel
Coffee cream
Tator tots 4
Gingerbread
Capers
Shrimp
Crab tail
Croissant mini
Taco chicken
Gummy candy
Dec 18
Coffee no cream
Chix sticks fries
Hammock beans
Crab cake 1
Coffee
Cookie
Wed
Monday, December 10, 2018
Thursday, November 15, 2018
You Won't forget
Sunday's ethan used to meet with his dad and grandparents and played at the park. Fun with toys and buddy the dog as well. Mama there all the time to do thedirtywork changingpampers woth dad too and feeding time or nap time.
At the town house in st. John Indiana Where he lived Jennifer and Katie from first steps trained him to crawl eat and talk when he was born he was short of breathe or heart rate from having PDA. Concerned of the matter for a couple years certified agents of pediatrics came to train him and discuss school or excessive lessons.
He didnt see his daddy and mommy as I would have wanted healthy and very happy as we were we were in development too as any parents. And we fought for our dreams as parents. He plays with his cousin. Goes for walks. Runs and does much stair climbing.
He is living in Chicago currently and temporarily wnjoying the big slides and tall building here amongst holding hands with nana and mama down the long sidewalks.
At his dad's he plays with box cars rail road trains and monster trucks. His dad brought out a bunch of his toys from toddler days too. He man figures and box cars.
His grandma there continues to buy tons of clothes and toys too. Laughing and playing napping and wstering plants watching the big trains honking going by or playing int he leaves during the fall or blow up pools there too bring ethan and his dad big smiles.
Ethan sits with his dad on the couch and drink iced tea and love to eat salty snacks such as cheese puffs and potosto chips. Tisty long balloons are a big hit there and easter egg hunts all for ethan to hunt and find candy.
He has his own little cars bed there and three huge toy boxes full of toys and shelves of educational art and math stuff. He has a piggy bank to put coins in and waters the plants there weekly with grandma and dada.
At his dad's he plays with box cars rail road trains and monster trucks. His dad brought out a bunch of his toys from toddler days too. He man figures and box cars.
His grandma there continues to buy tons of clothes and toys too. Laughing and playing napping and wstering plants watching the big trains honking going by or playing int he leaves during the fall or blow up pools there too bring ethan and his dad big smiles.
Ethan sits with his dad on the couch and drink iced tea and love to eat salty snacks such as cheese puffs and potosto chips. Tisty long balloons are a big hit there and easter egg hunts all for ethan to hunt and find candy.
He has his own little cars bed there and three huge toy boxes full of toys and shelves of educational art and math stuff. He has a piggy bank to put coins in and waters the plants there weekly with grandma and dada.
Tuesday, November 13, 2018
My Son is 2 and eats good.
Behold your Son. When Ethan was an infant he was put into prenatal care for being a big baby. He came out of a gestational diabetic environment and fought to keep his blood sugar stable as his mother's dropped and went to high.
There's a lot of time gone by since the first bite. The first drink. Yet we need air to eats breathe and no one finds problems with air. Air and food and drinks are all here. Air is the only involuntary element.
My son eats a lot a lot of potatoes. Fries. I eat a lot of fries. Im scared to death. He only eats starches. No proteins. Only milk and fries. Oh Lord. Is there protein milk or protein and veggie fruit juices for tots? Yes. How bout for Ethan? What can he will? He doesn't eat meat. Cheese Without a balamced daily and Mia with her fevers i am so calm yet as memories pore in of her nothing feels right here for her either. My son needs God. I need him to be well. And healthy. And then ill be as well. Even more so his dad. Behold you Son!
Sleeping by him has been accompanied by his grandma nana my mom. Not Eric's mom. And evety nite she woke to check him feed him and still does. He's 24 months. 31 months to be approx. I feel a frown. Upon my face maybe anguish dries my glow out..
Ethan has adorable big brown round eyes. And a smile that goes from ear to ear straight across his chubby round white face. Pale skin and very light hair shows him to have golden hairs as eye brows and facial hair already. Little yellow hairs on his arms and legs already coming in.
If eating and hydrating healthily were more than involuntary as breathing there would be peace on earth for me. I think of all the worry and craze to keeping him balanced with proper nutrition for him more than when he was an infant.
As an infant feeding him when he cried each time just to fulfill his hunger seemed more crucial. When he was too full hed spit up his milk. As a tot he pushes most food away and throws it or spills it out. When he doesnt want to eat i worry because i dont know when hell be eating again and i know he will get hungry especially with all the running jumping climbing and crawling that as an infant he didn't do.
As tiny as his tummy is so is his appetite. Ethan wont eat much meat. Sometimes chicken nuggets. And all he does eat is small portion a of Mac and cheese or othered buttered noodles. Secondly he eats french fries and nothing much else most days of the week. Dairy such as cheesecubes and or milk are big parts of his weekly routine still.
Maybe he still gets gas pains and puke milk curds from too much dairy i can only suspect. What about iron and protein? I worry for his needs as a growing boy physically and psychologically too. When im with him or when hes with others it seems he eats only based on his moods and or his comfort possibly.
Sometimes im sure of it that Ethan wont eat when i don't and will eat when i do but rarely. He doesn't drink water so i give him low sugar drinks and little fruit because of sugar auch as Apple slices and or well he doesnt eat bananas anymore.
The first thing i wantto do when he wakes is feed him. Nanna gives him oatmeal often. Sometimes he'll take it. He wants a bottle more often than not for comfort or nap and for his meal as we attempt to wait to first give him food. Again chips or salty snacks and of course candy we use very seldom.
At my sister Connies he will have again buttered noodles and i forgot to mention last but not least cukecumber and hotdog slices!! He is on the road allot going to grandma's and driving to Aunt Connies back and forth with my mom to watch Mia and take her to school.
Mia has fevers and then Ethan gets them too. Sometimes us adults catch them and or their colds. Ethan has woke many nights crying so hard that he throws up. And i can't do anything but watch him until he goes bacl tp sleep. Waking him up from his crying means we think he's sleeping. But you cant sleep and cry in your sleep and throw up too. Or can you? Well i think so I do remember do I that even just a few yezrs ago when my best friend moved out west.
I did what i could to stay healthy about it and still was sick as a dog with fevers and the flu.
Eric says he had night terrors when he was young. He would dream and run all over the house. His mother frequently tells the same history of her memories of it happening. All i can say is being a mother is more than a figure of speech or a life. Being a mother is life. It's being that child. Convinced of it. Behold your mother! Another verse in the bible.
Behold your Son! A verse in the Bible. Whatever we eat we give to Ethan. Portion and timing is the faith of life of a good healthy boy. Watching and waiting faithfully that he will eat soon or not drink to much molk or eat to much. Or have any bad food as we all do. Pastries donuts fried foods all over the house.
There's a lot of time gone by since the first bite. The first drink. Yet we need air to eats breathe and no one finds problems with air. Air and food and drinks are all here. Air is the only involuntary element.
My son eats a lot a lot of potatoes. Fries. I eat a lot of fries. Im scared to death. He only eats starches. No proteins. Only milk and fries. Oh Lord. Is there protein milk or protein and veggie fruit juices for tots? Yes. How bout for Ethan? What can he will? He doesn't eat meat. Cheese Without a balamced daily and Mia with her fevers i am so calm yet as memories pore in of her nothing feels right here for her either. My son needs God. I need him to be well. And healthy. And then ill be as well. Even more so his dad. Behold you Son!
Sleeping by him has been accompanied by his grandma nana my mom. Not Eric's mom. And evety nite she woke to check him feed him and still does. He's 24 months. 31 months to be approx. I feel a frown. Upon my face maybe anguish dries my glow out..
Ethan has adorable big brown round eyes. And a smile that goes from ear to ear straight across his chubby round white face. Pale skin and very light hair shows him to have golden hairs as eye brows and facial hair already. Little yellow hairs on his arms and legs already coming in.
If eating and hydrating healthily were more than involuntary as breathing there would be peace on earth for me. I think of all the worry and craze to keeping him balanced with proper nutrition for him more than when he was an infant.
As an infant feeding him when he cried each time just to fulfill his hunger seemed more crucial. When he was too full hed spit up his milk. As a tot he pushes most food away and throws it or spills it out. When he doesnt want to eat i worry because i dont know when hell be eating again and i know he will get hungry especially with all the running jumping climbing and crawling that as an infant he didn't do.
As tiny as his tummy is so is his appetite. Ethan wont eat much meat. Sometimes chicken nuggets. And all he does eat is small portion a of Mac and cheese or othered buttered noodles. Secondly he eats french fries and nothing much else most days of the week. Dairy such as cheesecubes and or milk are big parts of his weekly routine still.
Maybe he still gets gas pains and puke milk curds from too much dairy i can only suspect. What about iron and protein? I worry for his needs as a growing boy physically and psychologically too. When im with him or when hes with others it seems he eats only based on his moods and or his comfort possibly.
Sometimes im sure of it that Ethan wont eat when i don't and will eat when i do but rarely. He doesn't drink water so i give him low sugar drinks and little fruit because of sugar auch as Apple slices and or well he doesnt eat bananas anymore.
The first thing i wantto do when he wakes is feed him. Nanna gives him oatmeal often. Sometimes he'll take it. He wants a bottle more often than not for comfort or nap and for his meal as we attempt to wait to first give him food. Again chips or salty snacks and of course candy we use very seldom.
At my sister Connies he will have again buttered noodles and i forgot to mention last but not least cukecumber and hotdog slices!! He is on the road allot going to grandma's and driving to Aunt Connies back and forth with my mom to watch Mia and take her to school.
Mia has fevers and then Ethan gets them too. Sometimes us adults catch them and or their colds. Ethan has woke many nights crying so hard that he throws up. And i can't do anything but watch him until he goes bacl tp sleep. Waking him up from his crying means we think he's sleeping. But you cant sleep and cry in your sleep and throw up too. Or can you? Well i think so I do remember do I that even just a few yezrs ago when my best friend moved out west.
I did what i could to stay healthy about it and still was sick as a dog with fevers and the flu.
Eric says he had night terrors when he was young. He would dream and run all over the house. His mother frequently tells the same history of her memories of it happening. All i can say is being a mother is more than a figure of speech or a life. Being a mother is life. It's being that child. Convinced of it. Behold your mother! Another verse in the bible.
Behold your Son! A verse in the Bible. Whatever we eat we give to Ethan. Portion and timing is the faith of life of a good healthy boy. Watching and waiting faithfully that he will eat soon or not drink to much molk or eat to much. Or have any bad food as we all do. Pastries donuts fried foods all over the house.
Saturday, October 27, 2018
Sunday, July 22, 2018
Light of the Life
When will the time be right to keep a steady stream of light. Aiming high a light in the middle of the night before day breaks and the moon wakes on the other side.
There's a switch and a wire to light up an empire. There's a sadness and liar in a funreal pire. The longing for the eternally lit light for the rest of our lives lies in the heat of the nights stars so bright.
Shimmering, shining, glittering beaming, flashing, flickering, and gleaming inside. And it's alright, it's alright.
There's a switch and a wire to light up an empire. There's a sadness and liar in a funreal pire. The longing for the eternally lit light for the rest of our lives lies in the heat of the nights stars so bright.
Shimmering, shining, glittering beaming, flashing, flickering, and gleaming inside. And it's alright, it's alright.
Saturday, June 16, 2018
Thursday, June 14, 2018
Food Journal 2018
“Dear friend, I pray that you may enjoy good health and that all may go well with you, even as your soul is getting along well” (3 John 1:2).
The Lord guides us into healthy living, watering our lives like a garden
“The LORD will guide you continually, watering your life when you are dry and keeping you healthy, too. You will be like a well-watered garden, like an ever-flowing spring” (Isaiah 58:11, NLT
Friday
Potato mcds
Ice cream bar
With caramel
Coffee
Quesh small
Strawberries
Water
SATURDAY
CHOCOLATE WAFFLES PRETZELS 5
PIZZA 1/4
MACAND CHEESE 2 BITES
WATER
COFFER
AT HOME ALL BEFORE NOON
Pizza
Sausage 2 links 3p at home
Tuesday
Oatmeal with babana
Meat sauce, garlic bread
Strawberries
Mcgriddle bacon
At home with babies, mom.
Nuts
Wednesday
At home coffee cinnamon skim
Bananas smoothie
Nits
Coffee
Pretzels
Eggs to roll
Thursday may kicking dandelions
Turkey slice
Egg 8a
Coffee cream
Peanut butter smoothie at home before 9a
Honey ice, cinnamon
Egg scrambled
Speghetti meat
Two days ago garlic bread at erics
Moz cheese today
Crepes 2 with cc and grape jelly at home with Erha.
Baked potato chips
Garlic meat mixture with onion lunch at Erics
Lemon cookie
All before 1p
May13
Corn nuts 10
Sharp cheddar slice 2
Chicken mushroom. Breast lunch
2 white castles at home with mom dad
Coffee tea, water lemon,diet cherry soda
French fries 5
Gummy bears 10
Chocolate Pretzels 6
Oatmeal bite
Lemon cook half
One cheeto
Strawberries last night 4
Corn on a cob pieces
Half a chummy changeable
Bun with relish and horse radish sauce
Large orange
2 cuties at erics
May 14
Coffee
Water lemon
Rench fries chicken wrap dq
Jelly and toast
At home last
Potato and sausage with Ramon noodles
Smoothie with pb and 3 strawberry honey skim milk cup
At home kids and mom
May 15
Ham on rye mayo
Coffee
Water lemon
V8 juice lemon
Tortilla hamburger small mustard half
French vanilla cappy small
Cough drops 4
Midnite slice. Pizza and 5 cherries
Tea
Diet orange soda half can
May 16
Egg and sausage at home with dad
Tea
bagel no butter little cram cheese Starbucks on road
Half hamunch at Anitas with dad mayo
Sandwich
Double chocolate cookie at anitas half
Taste of babana coconut pudding
Taste.of yogurt at anitaa
Snack apple slices with Mia in car.
Taste
Taste coffer starabucks
More cookie and snacks
Half ham sandwich
Cream cheese
V8 juice
Water lemon
1 cherry
Almond slices
May 17 bad cold
Oatmeal
Tea
Water lemon
Coffee
Cinnamon
Taco chic bite
V8 cup 1
Mayc18
Oatmeal lf cup breakfast at home
Egg sausage 1 cup
2 triscuit with cheese
Baked oiled salted nuts and potato ch snack all afternoon
Fruit yogurt 1 cup strawber,blueberry,banana, nuts
2 fish st8x lunch
Tea cup 2
Itamin c chews
At home by myself mostly every week
Reese es snack
Bite of ice cream sandwich
V8 cup 1
Cereal Chex mix
Fried potato
Water
2 ribs dinner
2 small slices of Italian bread
Pizza slice
Cup popcorn at home 7p dinner mom
Sunday may 20th
Spiced black Beauty 2 cups 6 tble of sugar
10 frenchfries mcds with Ethan
Half a turkey wrap
Potato chips
Lunch at home 3p with mom
Chix Mc nuggets 2
Small fry
Other half of turkey wrap
Buttercookie
Chocolate whopper 1
Salmon pesto on toast
Monday may 21
Spiced tea AR home with Ethan
Coffee
Popcorn
Hash brown
Half burrito in car
With Ethan
Coconut cookies at home
Above 9am
2 cups oil olive and popcorn5cups
Hot tea 2 cupspopcorn,
Hamburg with white moz cheese
Basil oil
Jelly beans 20
Smores yogurt
Half grilled cheese grilled tomatoes onions
WHite,egg bites and strawberries 1 bite
Sausage 5 bites
5/22 mom's bday
Waffle plain with garlic onion salt breakfast
Coffee and sip of juice
Half grilled chess grill veggies waterlinem lunch
Frosting licks cake snack
Cup of banana smoothie. Half cup
5 chocolate covered acai berries
2 Coconut thin cookies
2 nuggets
Pickle half sausage
Snacks
At home with Victoria
Lemon water
Tea cinnamon lunch
Pizza and Meatball
Dinner with family at home
Pbj half
5/23 at home momdad
Tea cups
Waffle bits
Coffee cups
Bananas cereal milk lunch
Chocolates 4
Egg whites
Vitamin cs
Pill
Bits cake
Crackers pesto, salmon spread snacks
Coffee lunch snacks
5/24
French fries
Lunch
2 French capped
Chix and pasta
Chilli mac
Coffee
Water lemon 3 cups
Chex rice cereal banana
Eggs and bacon breakfast Ethan at h
5/27
Food journal
Coffee
Water
Half Mcgriddle
Half hash brown
Bbq beef
Cream bbq dip
Pita bread half
5/26
Food journal
Mangos
Cupcake
Bbq hamburger bun less
Cream bbq dip
Fruit Veg dish
Egg
Smoothie blueberry
Yea
Coffee
5/27
5/28
Mango
Bbq neat
Bunkers hamburger
Mall bite mac and cheese
Water
Tiramisu
French cappy small
Coconut flavored water
Donut hole
Egg pita grilled onion half a brat
5/29
Egg hot dog 2 bites
Bbq meat cup. At home lunch breakfast with mom Ethan
Turamisu
Water coffee
Butterscotch chips
Waffle chocchips 1
Oil
Bread roll 1
2 coconuts cookies
Bites of maccheese
Fried Chix drum stick 1
Honey mustard sauce teaspoon
Crackers
Chix pasta and onion ri ng scarrotrings
5/31
Breakfast
Eggs cheese half cup,
Coffee cup
Lunch
At home with Ethan and Katie
Bacon strips 1
Oatmeal bite
Bites of Tiramisu
Before 10a
Hamburger 6p half
Potato half cup
Onion
Honeymustard 5 tblspns
At home alone
Small grape juice
Small french vanilla cappuccino
2 cup Tea
Butterscotch chips 20
June 1rst
Chix soup bananas bread dinner at erics
June 2
Banana bread at erics
Coffee breakfast at erics
Cappy
Cereal no milk at erics
Chix pulled
Chex mix snack
Chix mushroom capers leftovers lunch at home alone
Banana bread
Spanish rice 1 cup
Veg oil and bread slices with mom at dinner
Coffee
June 3rd half.cjuxcken burrito
Chips guacamole
Butterscotch chips
Popcorn oil 2 cups
Half Chix burrito
Cupcakes half small
Blueberry smoothie with honey and ice cinnamon and clove
Banana bars
Popcorn 2 cups
No nuggets no fries
LG vanilla coffee iced
June 5th 7th
Cake chocolate mousse two days few bites with coffee at erics and home
Chix sslad last night dinner 1 cup with bread at erics house with him
Coffee
Gatorade at home lunch at park with Ethan Victoria
Ice cream cake with erics house and this lunch
Toast 2 with butter with Victoria
Oatmeal Half cup with nuts milk butter with Katie at home
Coffee cream with Ethan
And sliced bananas in cereal
Calamari yesterday
With grilled onion garlic and bread
At home lunch with Victoria
Bolonie with lunch yesterday 1 slice
Dinner snack Bite of yogurt and sliced Strawberries last nite
Gareth popcorn cup Chicago with ethan,mom,dad in suv
Microwaved popcorn at Wicker Park with oil victoria
Eggs and sausage
Spam bites
Red grapes 8 at home
Jello
Blueberry
Ice smoothie
Cheese bites
The kitchen is not nice.its unpleasant and nothing is orderly, very chaotic and nerve wrecking.
June 8th
Roast berk half from Pops on rt30
Cookie bits
Water
Coffee
Ginger tea
Yesterday little fries and gyro meat cuc MN ER sauce
First time using garlic,vhis month
Ginger too and coconut water
Cereal half cup
Corn dog
Chix six 8
Cheese popcorn had cup
Little sour straws and Butterscotch morsels 5 each
Apple slices 5 thin sliced
Bites of maccheese
Buffalo Chix mix salad half cup
June 9th
Apple
Coconut coffee
morning at home
Oatmeal brown sugar nuts strawberry honey
Ginger coconut juice
Lunch at Erics
Beef pork taco
Turkey mayo bread mustard
Coffee
At home
Egg
Cream vanilla 4 little ones
Canned fruit
June 10
Cheese popcorn at home alone
Cake
Coffee at church a. T home with mom and dad
Tea
Chix
Eggs
Hirzo
To biacuits
Butterscotch morsels
Cream hazelnut coffee
Water ginger hot
Lost two large lemon cookies
June 11th
Half Mc d hash brown with Ethan in kitchen 9a
Honey Ginger tea 2.cups
Coffee half a cup
Strawberries 2
Botes.of yogurt 12 lunch
Banana bread with coconut cookies
And Almond extract with dad at 11a
Cheese garrets.popcorn 1130a snack half cup
Ethan did not est well. Only had fruit 2 pieces
I had half a burrito Mc ds no taste to me 10a
Esting all mor snack ing snacking.
French. Fri mcds
184.6 lbs
June 12th
Waffle
Chic fingers
Broccoli
Pork chop
Half Mcd fish
Tea
Ginger
Coffee
Cinnamon
French toast
Strawberry
June 13th
Coffee
Water
Egg. Muffin cheese
Snack chips
French cappy small
Who gives a fuck
Popcorn
Nutty nutty bites
Popcicle
June 14
Coffee Waffle strawberry, Jimmy joh
Eggs and potatoes
Water
Salmin,taco
Breakfast big with mom, ethan, tia becky, vi
May 12
Pancake bites
French cappy
Chex cereal
5 shrimp
Fish strip
Bite of turkey sandwich
Mayo
Water,lemon,xoffee at home all oabve lunch with dad mom at home.
Taco meat at wrrics,4p moz cheese
Yesterday half donut
Taste apple,
Cheese Potato thins at Eric
Coffee cream
Cookie
Red grapes
Mcd nugget, french,fries
Cheese and crackers for lunch
Smoked salmon spread shrimp
At home,trescuit cracker dinner
Wednesday, June 13, 2018
Relinquishing Fire
Her bright white hair lit up with the sun behind her and her face was blocked by shadowing mystery. Did she wait one last time to make contact? And what kept the connect carefully unmet? A hello from a pew far in the back and a wave. Would it be the last wave? A wave hello? And goodbye? Guilt and shame for not getting up, walking over to her, meeting face to face, and soaking in the historical depth of friendship, family, and kindness.
It had been years ago, a longing, a memory so vague and incomplete filled a gap of blank space from her nurturing kindness to two ltitle girls lavishing them with gifts. She vanished. Where had she gone this women who once was welcoming, warm, and brunette? Her hair as white as the glowing heavens above?
The burning burning of the visit with her in church, as gravity grew to a new heaviness in the pew, the connect was unlinked, and only left were the faded visits of gifts and sound advice emptying and draining . will she only be a childhood caregiver for guardians two little girls?
The stinging of her firey white hair from a distance was the last time, a sign, and a life lesson a cold heart of ice thawed a little more from that point in time. What could it have been if she came closer and closer with her message? Would it have been clearer, and more pleasant building a path of uinty, and a bridge of life.
It had been years ago, a longing, a memory so vague and incomplete filled a gap of blank space from her nurturing kindness to two ltitle girls lavishing them with gifts. She vanished. Where had she gone this women who once was welcoming, warm, and brunette? Her hair as white as the glowing heavens above?
The burning burning of the visit with her in church, as gravity grew to a new heaviness in the pew, the connect was unlinked, and only left were the faded visits of gifts and sound advice emptying and draining . will she only be a childhood caregiver for guardians two little girls?
The stinging of her firey white hair from a distance was the last time, a sign, and a life lesson a cold heart of ice thawed a little more from that point in time. What could it have been if she came closer and closer with her message? Would it have been clearer, and more pleasant building a path of uinty, and a bridge of life.
Monday, May 28, 2018
Pita from St. JOHNS farmers market Sunday mornings
This
It's not quite summer and the roasting sun has seared the top of our heads and shoulders. My Aunt Cece and Becky and I mingled in front of the shaded vendors and laughed over our water bottles trying to keep cool. Ran into the very glamorous dark red head I've ever met and her waist length in height son.She had just been treated for poison ivy poor mama. She is the exact age of the modern day disney princess in person. Elegant, classic in style, and with a wholesome fashion sense thats easy on the eyes. Quickly we parted ways with a couple last greetings of shared persons from school. Waiting for my aunts who were ahead of me buying those hang up plants, I glanced over to the baba ganoush varieties for $5.00 each.
picking up the pita bread after standing under the cheese vendors was much more of a relief than smelling the pungent and sharp smells, ordors, aromas or warm appearance I'm the hotness of the morning, where we laughed and had so much functastings samples of exotic and tropical cheeses from around the world.
Bringing the pita bread home, the first day without toasting it, was dry and tasteless . The second day after toasting it and baking the rest of it in the oven drizzled with olive oil too brought out the pita breads best. My son, my mom, and I ate at the table and with the company of two shiny and silky feathered friends at the window sill next to little guy who felt as if the birds were meant to be there anyway and wasn't surprised as I was that the two birds were not seagulls or pigeons pecking away for food and still sat next to us on the window sill within inches from the tots high chair
To pita bread from the farmers market thank you for tasting so good, as my tot would say. And goodbye blog entry.
2nd year birthday party over.
Cupcakes as high as the ceiling. Hotter than Texas. Sloppy Joes, and wonderful relish trays with spicy buffalo chicken. Thank you Theresa, Lydia aka grandparents and my prego sister and her husband for coming on busy schedules. Great surprises to see Lilley and Lea, Casey, and her lovely mom.
Grandma Mom and dad awesome house, awesome party. Clean up a bitch but I'm sweating through it and we'll cherish the day. Daddy love you too. Roo roo Becky bird from Finding Dory.
Grandpa and Dad in Paoli, IN
Enchantment of Paoli, IN has the clearest dark nights. And the hottest.sunshine. here's a quick glimpse rough draft edgy written over the hard work behind the scenes.of grandpa's and daddy Warnecke's majestic dreams coming alive.
Day and night it takes planning, rest, and strategies to prepare for weather conditions for building a snuggley Grubb eating nest to roast pigs, lamb, and ribs. Although hardy steak juicy and we'll done are the preference here with baked potatoes and tossed salads this is no diner restaurant. Sorry folks this is the private reserves of a family inheritance of a beautiful place to getaway from it all and share I'm with an environment where love and joy grow everyday with new cheery trees, flowers blooming, and the wild nature calls of rural creatures.
It's a wonderful place that will touch hearts whove been there with soulful memories for a life time. Campfires, baseball games, book reading under a shaded tree, music, lights, hot coffee in the morning with the hummingbirds, and a catfish pond.
Log splitting, canopies for a cool place to relax. Moonlit pathways into the the woods. A gazebo and outhouse on the way. A place for deer to roam, and the trees sway back and forth all around the sweet lob cabin built by warm and gentle hands of friends and family. There's dragon flys, butter flies, and whispering oaks through the windy breezes of clean cou try air.
Watching the dew in the morning and the sweet earthy smell of green grass as the fresh cut blows in the hot breeze it was so quiet whistling as loud as possible didn't stir anything. The strange silence in the pitch black night swept up by the bright moonlight, the croaking of bull frogs, the snapping of turtes and twigs, lure the calm and stillness to the harmony of nature.
Dreams fill the imagination with colors serene and tranquil to attract you, and have you begging for a few weeks there. Miles away the owners.spend 4 hours through the rugged rock and woods spread in acres of highways for miles.
many things there can get your mind off work, and home, and into the wild of rural southern charm and the mysterious ways that have you hungry for a quiet stay in Paoli, IN.
Sunday, May 27, 2018
Thursday, May 17, 2018
Tottling Tots
In NW Indiana, routines are what keep you flourishing as a parent in the springtime. Caring for a tot is a clear and present love for mother. Sunshine, walks, runs, and asking permission, and constant questions can turn your tot into a leader, confident and bold for learning and teaching too. There is rain, temperature, and nature to daily priorities of showing them each of these along with the crafts of whatever u have in mind.
For example, coloring, drawing, learning new flags of countries, or snack time three to six a day. Milk. Trying exotic new foods once in a while maybe. During night terrors caressing their tiny hands and gently on cheeks to bring them into wake away from that dreams thing happening as their sleepy eyes aren't awake yet.
Socks and shoes outside, or cut out shapes for cheese, and lunch meats. Lots of tlc, rest, restoration for mom. And forever grooming to feel better. No time, keep calenders for important notes and appoients. In the start, it seems life is good, and then it gets better,easier, and community fun begins.
Good mornings, good n8ghts, and arithmetic become glamorous. Your sophistication becomes forever affection, and or hugs, cuddling, and kissies, sippy cups, sun block, and lots of bubbles. Tickling, laughing, and cooing will be permanent with growing health and wealth of time with tot.
Making room for imagination, dance and sing. Learn from mom's all around the world. What is it that cultures or routines with tots in other parents fashion doing? Keep open low sugar treats around, plenty of attention and eye contact with tots for saftey and hunger to learn environment for them to discover new things.
Sounds of airplanes,trains, and sirens make a tots day. Things never noticed on busy schedules tots can point out to you if you listen closely with an open heart. Birds, owls, woodpeckers, dogs, and family time are their world. Clean hands and face with a warm wash cloth with diaper changes are made to show care to your tot.
book time too. ChIago visits to see tall buildings and big water lakes too.art, new settings, along the way to grandma's in three towns over. Driving is everything to a tot. Feeling the rain, snow, and having all the four Seasons and open acres of tractors in this area. Horses, deer, and sometimes cows to view out grandpa's convertable. Driving in big trucks, touching big wheels, and learning speech can ride your life for a while in whatever style of play with y our tot.
For example, coloring, drawing, learning new flags of countries, or snack time three to six a day. Milk. Trying exotic new foods once in a while maybe. During night terrors caressing their tiny hands and gently on cheeks to bring them into wake away from that dreams thing happening as their sleepy eyes aren't awake yet.
Socks and shoes outside, or cut out shapes for cheese, and lunch meats. Lots of tlc, rest, restoration for mom. And forever grooming to feel better. No time, keep calenders for important notes and appoients. In the start, it seems life is good, and then it gets better,easier, and community fun begins.
Good mornings, good n8ghts, and arithmetic become glamorous. Your sophistication becomes forever affection, and or hugs, cuddling, and kissies, sippy cups, sun block, and lots of bubbles. Tickling, laughing, and cooing will be permanent with growing health and wealth of time with tot.
Making room for imagination, dance and sing. Learn from mom's all around the world. What is it that cultures or routines with tots in other parents fashion doing? Keep open low sugar treats around, plenty of attention and eye contact with tots for saftey and hunger to learn environment for them to discover new things.
Sounds of airplanes,trains, and sirens make a tots day. Things never noticed on busy schedules tots can point out to you if you listen closely with an open heart. Birds, owls, woodpeckers, dogs, and family time are their world. Clean hands and face with a warm wash cloth with diaper changes are made to show care to your tot.
book time too. ChIago visits to see tall buildings and big water lakes too.art, new settings, along the way to grandma's in three towns over. Driving is everything to a tot. Feeling the rain, snow, and having all the four Seasons and open acres of tractors in this area. Horses, deer, and sometimes cows to view out grandpa's convertable. Driving in big trucks, touching big wheels, and learning speech can ride your life for a while in whatever style of play with y our tot.
Saturday, January 20, 2018
.College Creators
Remembering the voices and throat clearing and shuffling of papers of all my professors ...the page turning of student text books and the cold crisp cracking noises of new college books....are the memories of my youth and daily upbringing. Where did my youth go? Who am I kidding as I rise in the morning to a hunger for knowledge and a longing for love? Hope.
Speckled images of a time well spent, a time long gone. Breaking into my present is a time where the depths of memory have grown further down while digging for treasures through all the mud of times masterpiece, the past. There used to be more trust with the learning time. The time when your young and looking for answers. Curious how things work?
Dad would ask this question often assuming I wasn't interested in how things work. Walking from class to class with a walk man and a book bag was a daily task for a handful of years. Exploring the culture and great fields of study such as music, law, science, and criminal justice was my adventure every day.
Surrounded by students with a common goal, to graduate and become an achiever of something bigger than anyone. Where has the time gone?, it brings me to tears to think how much time has gone by since graduating from Indiana University, Bloomington, Indiana 2003. Time just burns up everything so fast.
Amazingly, I was working at America's coffee and all it took was one colleague to contact me for a college reunion. It was the most awkward time. The way it happened was my manager said I had a phone call at work. In the age of cells who would be calling me at work on the cell. It was Shawn, the black sheep of our college onterage. And being pregnant at the time about to take off from work, there couldn't be a more miracle of a time to think of a a family of alumni than that moment.
Speckled images of a time well spent, a time long gone. Breaking into my present is a time where the depths of memory have grown further down while digging for treasures through all the mud of times masterpiece, the past. There used to be more trust with the learning time. The time when your young and looking for answers. Curious how things work?
Dad would ask this question often assuming I wasn't interested in how things work. Walking from class to class with a walk man and a book bag was a daily task for a handful of years. Exploring the culture and great fields of study such as music, law, science, and criminal justice was my adventure every day.
Surrounded by students with a common goal, to graduate and become an achiever of something bigger than anyone. Where has the time gone?, it brings me to tears to think how much time has gone by since graduating from Indiana University, Bloomington, Indiana 2003. Time just burns up everything so fast.
Amazingly, I was working at America's coffee and all it took was one colleague to contact me for a college reunion. It was the most awkward time. The way it happened was my manager said I had a phone call at work. In the age of cells who would be calling me at work on the cell. It was Shawn, the black sheep of our college onterage. And being pregnant at the time about to take off from work, there couldn't be a more miracle of a time to think of a a family of alumni than that moment.
Tuesday, January 9, 2018
Healthy Girl
There's a long grief from obsession about my long relation with my belly fat. It seems I'm all focused on the wrong part, my belly fat. It feels terrible to think of the fat on my belly, and no where else.
I don't think about the fat on my butt or back. Or my face and thighs. All day I'm thinking about fat. Fat on my elly. Is it under or over my stomach? And is it just as watery on the inside as it is on the outside? What is all this jello around my middle and sides?
And it just sits in rolls. All day I work on losing this fat around my middle. I obsess about having the flat stomach with a size 20, 15, 25. Where does it come from? Does it really come from sugar? Does it really shrink and come back just as fast as I eat 9r not?
So many strategies to flat abs on television and in books by doctors, and scientists. I just don't know what else to do. I've done years of sit ups, a d years of nothing. Let's just say months.
All this hype on thin model talk and size 5 pants and how good it looks and feels. What a career! God knows beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Wisdom tells us from one day to the next no day is the same. I'm so self conscious and the bane of my own self image.
Love your body news still hasn't helped me in all this obsession over the tire around my middle. Up and down the scale rises and falls and all of it comes from my middle. It makes me feel good some days and bad other days when I can hide it or show it in the right fit of clothes.
There's a long grief from obsession about my long relation with my body fat. It seems I'm all focused on the wrong part, my belly fat. It feels terrible to think of the fat on my belly, and no where else. There's alot to look at and follow with losing weight all over not just the belly. That goes when you're working on your arms, or legs as well as the belly flab.
At the gym it takes a full body balance with weights and cardiovascular fitness alternating upper and lower body work outs every day.
My whole life I've been working for those sexy abs of steel to no avail. Watching what I eat and joining gyms all over Chicago. Memberships nation wide. I just couldn't believe I'd ever get peace of mind with myself. Squeezing into tight jeans and khakis with sweaters helped to hide my very flawed belly it seemed to me.
Talk about obsessed and determined to get rid of these flabby rolls, I spent years with talking more about it than anything else. And probably will until I can sustain the right fitness formula for me.
It takes days and months to keep up those healthy flat abs that I sometimes had depending how well I was eating and resting right. Stress and child baring can make it challenging to lose weight around yor middle and being short or giving up.
Trying to keep up with those photographs in fitness magazines makes it pretty hard to accept the results and work done to stay trim and svelte as I wok very hard to keep up with what Ive fallen far behind on since 2003.
I think you can do anything anywhere it just seems more difficult to for example get those chiselled abs if you are not around others who have chiseled abs if your like me weak. I've given in easily to weight gain eating too much, and exercising too little.
The formula I've failed time and time again.
There's a long grief from obsession about my long relation with my belly fat. It seems I'm all focused on the wrong part, my belly fat. It feels terrible to think of the fat on my belly, and no where else. An amazing recipe for oatmeal that goes way back to the stone age in my family that my mother makes even still today:
4 cups of boiling water
<1/2 cup cinnamon
a pinch of salt
2-4 cups of oats
and for sugar she uses <1.2 cup of pancake syrup
and let sit and cook with flame off for 15-20 minutes. Depending on how thick you like it.
So many strategies to flat abs on television and in books by doctors, and scientists. I just don't know what else to do. I've done years of sit ups, a d years of nothing. Let's just say months.
All this hype on thin model talk and size 5 pants and how good it looks and feels. What a career! God knows beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Wisdom tells us from one day to the next no day is the same. I'm so self conscious and the bane of my own self image.
Love your body news still hasn't helped me in all this obsession over the tire around my middle. Up and down the scale rises and falls and all of it comes from my middle. It makes me feel good some days and bad other days when I can hide it or show it in the right fit of clothes.
There's a long grief from obsession about my long relation with my body fat. It seems I'm all focused on the wrong part, my belly fat. It feels terrible to think of the fat on my belly, and no where else. There's alot to look at and follow with losing weight all over not just the belly. That goes when you're working on your arms, or legs as well as the belly flab.
At the gym it takes a full body balance with weights and cardiovascular fitness alternating upper and lower body work outs every day.
My whole life I've been working for those sexy abs of steel to no avail. Watching what I eat and joining gyms all over Chicago. Memberships nation wide. I just couldn't believe I'd ever get peace of mind with myself. Squeezing into tight jeans and khakis with sweaters helped to hide my very flawed belly it seemed to me.
Talk about obsessed and determined to get rid of these flabby rolls, I spent years with talking more about it than anything else. And probably will until I can sustain the right fitness formula for me.
It takes days and months to keep up those healthy flat abs that I sometimes had depending how well I was eating and resting right. Stress and child baring can make it challenging to lose weight around yor middle and being short or giving up.
Trying to keep up with those photographs in fitness magazines makes it pretty hard to accept the results and work done to stay trim and svelte as I wok very hard to keep up with what Ive fallen far behind on since 2003.
I think you can do anything anywhere it just seems more difficult to for example get those chiselled abs if you are not around others who have chiseled abs if your like me weak. I've given in easily to weight gain eating too much, and exercising too little.
The formula I've failed time and time again.
There's a long grief from obsession about my long relation with my belly fat. It seems I'm all focused on the wrong part, my belly fat. It feels terrible to think of the fat on my belly, and no where else. An amazing recipe for oatmeal that goes way back to the stone age in my family that my mother makes even still today:
4 cups of boiling water
<1/2 cup cinnamon
a pinch of salt
2-4 cups of oats
and for sugar she uses <1.2 cup of pancake syrup
and let sit and cook with flame off for 15-20 minutes. Depending on how thick you like it.
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